I’ve been slack as with this blog the past couple of weeks. Mainly because I’ve been wrestling with these revisions. Hard. Hard. Hard. You know I say that romance writing ‘aint for sissies?
Tears have been shed. Yes, I admit it. Tantrums have been thrown. I have said many times ‘I’m giving up. I can’t do this. I can’t get it right. I’ll never get it right.’ Much swearing occured in our house as I tried to find my way into these wretched characters. I wrote a whole partial! Which will never see the light of day because it was rubbish. And why? Because it comes down to the most basic problem which was the fact that I had not nailed down my conflict. I thought I had but I didn’t go deep enough and therefore I did not know how my charcters would react and so they acted inconsistently.
But. I think I’ve got the conflict sorted now. This is a huge caveat of course because I’ve thought I’ve had it many times before and haven’t. I still don’t know if the first chapter is right or not – I’ve thought that about all of my writing before subbing and been wrong. It feels right but then so has everything else. Ultimately, I have no idea what the editor will say.
Anyway, I’ve rewritten the first chapter twice, both entirely different. This is easier for me because it breaks away from the scene and characters that didn’t work and makes sure I don’t fall into old patterns. I’m hoping that finally I’ve got it. At least they’re acting in a way that is true to their conflict. In the end, though, all I can do is sub it and see.
Anyone else tearing their hair out over their stupid characters?