Final verdict is in and the jury decided: guilty.
In other words they didn’t want my manuscript. Clearly the second opinion the EA got found too many things wrong with it and the fault was largely with my heroine. To be fair, I did write this last year before I knew all that I know now and I found it very difficult shoe-horning believable conflict into a premise that probably shouldn’t have flown in the first place. I probably should have rewritten the whole thing from the start.
Anyway, all is not lost. They told me they saw great potential in me as a writer and that I didn’t need the pitch slot I had booked for the RWNZ conference because I already had their attention and continued feedback (I’m hoping!). And basically I should send them whatever I’m working on now. I emailed Anna back and told her I had four completed manuscripts and which one did she want to see? 🙂 Bit cheeky I guess.
So, today, I need to have a good wallow, and deal with my disappointment – which is mainly focussed on having to begin the waiting process again. It’s been very hard and it will be hard to face another year while they decide on something else.
You guys have been great with all the support you’ve given me. And – this is silly I know – but I feel like I’ve disappointed everyone. I hope I haven’t. I hope I’ll be able to post something a lot more positive in the future and repay all that good faith, because obviously I’m not giving up. Not in the slightest. I’m going to do this no matter how long it takes me.