I’ve got a general theme this week – first my stupid process and now I’m hating my stupid story. First draft blues in other words. I should know by now that at a certain point in the first draft – usually about 3/4s of the way through – I start to doubt everything. And I mean EVERYTHING. The characters, the conflict, the plot. Everything sucks. Sucks in a ‘I can’t stand this stupid thing, what’s the point even writing it?’ way.
I don’t know why this happens but without fail it happens to every single story.
And I’m at that point now with the WIP. It feels like there’s vital bits of conflict still to put in and I’m at 35k already. Vital bits of backstory. Conversations the hero and heroine still haven’t had. I’m worried that the character arcs won’t be clear enough. Have I put in enough ‘romance’. Are the motivations clear. Does my plot actually work….
Basically it just sucks. Inevitably, once I’ve finished, I read back over it and I realise it’s actually not as bad as all that but having to go through this particular doubting process is SUCH a drag. It’s at times like this where I wish I was a first-time right kind of writer. Where your first draft, with a once over lightly edit, is pretty much the finished product. But I’m not, I’m a ‘spew all your words down first, then edit the crap out of it later’ kind of writer. And right now I’m thinking that there’s way too much crap to edit out.
Maybe it’s just the mood I’m in. Maybe my story really actually does suck bigtime. Maybe I need to bin the whole thing and start again.
So does anyone else have this syndrome? What do you do to keep yourself writing? Any hot tips???